yesterdae came hm frm work, den little sis kp pestering me to plau uno wif her.. coz my mum bought her de card game recently.. although de game was quite old le.. hahas.. so i played wif her lor.. tgt wif my sis and bro.. wanted to ask mum to play initially de but she dun wan and dunno.. hahas.. so we played and den my little sis was like kp losing.. and me and my another sis was always winning de game.. haha.. my bro was on a losing streak oso.. coz he kp forgetting to sae uno when he had de last card.. a lot of times and he still couldn't remember.. so funny.. hahas.. in de end we played till 12 plus den went to bed..

todae went for work ma.. den coz de security guard strike lottery.. so he treat us for lunch.. though he did not win much.. but he was still so generous to treat everyone.. so i got extra pocket money frm him.. hahas..he's so gd and humorous too.. can't stop laughing when i see him de.. i felt tt all de ppl working here was very gd and friendly.. unlike de previous time when i was working in john little.. de staff sux like hell la..hmph.. so i can sae tt i really enjoyed working here.. although its a bit boring at times.. but still i find it enjoyable.. ikea was having some event tingy.. not sure wad.. but they were distributing free items.. so wc went to take lor.. during his break.. den came back wif a lot of cute red hearts wif hands de, smthg like a small soft toy.. hahas.. so cute.. so he gave me one.. coz he got a lot.. todae realli no ppl de.. so i was like playing wif de heart most of de time.. boring and sian..i still hav 10 more days to go.. den i'll be free to go shopping and slp as much as i can.. whee.. but i muz oso start studying le la.. if not i'll suffer when sch reopens de.. hahas..

i was so happy initially de.. coz i knew tt mum and sis they all would be meeting me for lunch.. coz i was always alone eating de.. so pathetic lor.. no one to tok to.. so when i went to work, i was like anticipating for lunchtime.. kp checking de time.. finally, my sis called me coz they reached le..i was so excited lor.. quickly rushed up to meet them.. hahas.. den we went kfc to eat.. coz my little sis wanna eat.. i was so happy while eating.. kp laughing and toking.. feels like ages since i've been toking freely and casually.. but time realli flies.. i had to go back to work and i couldn't bear to leave de.. but no choice.. so i left.. but aft a while they came and bought some cookies frm me.. yay.. coz de cookies has not been selling well.. mum and sis bought quite a lot.. hahas.. aft they left quite boring le.. den aft work, we actually planned to hav dinner outside de.. den my dad la.. he is always like tt de lehx.. i mean everytime when we are happy den he had to spoil all our mood de.. coz my bro doesn't wan to go and we we are not supposed to go? wad logic is tt... nvr mind tt.. den we had to be scolded all de way till we reach dere.. when we reach dere he still had to scold.. why is he always like tt.. i mean i oso hav my 'mian zi(face)' de lor.. and he had to throw my face.. make me lose face in front of so many ppl.. if he is unwilling to go den tell us la.. de rest of us still can go without him.. it doesn't affect me at all.. we did not had a peaceful dinner at all.. because of wad he said.. realli lor.. he realli dun understand a single bit.. i can't take it le lor.. so many probs lehx.. i juz feel like killing myself den everytink will be over le.. i dun hav to tink bout all these irritating tinks at all.. i am so troubled lor.. hais..

yesterdae finally went chalet for de first time wif my frens.. hahas.. coz in de past cannot go de.. parents dun allow ma.. so excited.. aft work quickly rush hm bath and change le.. den luckily dad send me to downtown east, if not i would hav to travel all de way dere den will be tired and sleepy liao.. so my dad lompang mavis oso.. can't find where her hse is de.. so confusing.. all de streets look de same and quite dangerous lor.. a lot of those foreign workers, indians all tt.. be careful hor mavis.. dun always go hm so late le la.. hahas.. finally reach de chalet le.. den went mac to buy food first coz i haven had dinner yet.. my stomach was like growling so loudly.. hahas.. den meet susu and hidaya.. coz we dunno where de chalet was.. so long nvr see them le.. hahas... still de same old character.. haha..hidaya was like saying i juz came back frm malaysia or where coz i was carrying quite a lot of tinks ma.. i was carrying my bag, jacket, wallet, drink and food.. a lot meh.. hahas.. den waited for xinyi b4 going to de chalet rm.. beth, jas, eileen, huixian, kelly, sean, hanjin, merelda and their bf all dere.. played poker cards.. hahas.. de funny one was when we each chose one card and sticked it on de forehead.. den we muz not end up wif de smallest or biggest card.. hahas.. so funny la.. mavis de cannot stick.. we use our forehead oil.. guess she doesn't have oil on her face de.. tts gd ma.. hahas.. den played heart attack for a while oso.. they all kp screaming la.. hahas.. den played muderer for very long.. beth was de narrator.. admit she's quite gd at narrating.. hahas.. made me realli feel tt i was in tt situation.. i always ended up wif de medic or detective de.. poor hanjin was always de civilian..hahas.. and she was grumbling bout tt.. and she was always de first one being killed.. damn funny la.. but realli very fun and exciting.. hahas.. aft tt we went for a night walk till 5 plus den went back to de rm.. we walked around den ended up in cheers buying stuff coz susu had a $20 voucher.. thanks susu for de drink.. sat down at somewhere downstairs and was chatting a bit.. den de idiotic lizard la.. fall onto de chair where i and mavis was sitting.. eew.. eileen told us de.. den i was like eew.. coz i realli very scared of all these tinks de.. so we went back to de rm lor.. den all of them were slping le.. so we sat down in de dark and talked a bit.. guess everyone was tired le so everyone slept.. till i woke up at 6 plus den decided to go hm and slp instead.. since dere was still time and my clothes haven dry yet.. though it was a short period of time wif them, i still enjoyed it.. 0623C rox.. hahas.. had so much fun laughing and crapping.. aft tt went work liao.. so tired.. but now not le.. hahas..

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i realli don't understand why u all suddenly talked bout dis.. i mean its all of a sudden.. i was shocked to see u all like lecturing me in my tagboard..i was so hurt and sad at tt point of time.. i realli tried to organize outings oso de lor.. u ask karen la.. i asked her whether she was free first not coz she had smthg on tt whole wk.. so when she said she was not free den i said okie lor nvr mind.. next time c when u all can den cum out again lor.. i mean its not as if i didn't try.. but u all noe i'm not like u all always can go out de.. u all should noe me aft all these yrs wad.. i hav to always go hm and look aft my sis.. if not always got family probs de.. so can't go out often.. den now u all say i always nvr turn up for de gatherings? i did, but not as often coz i couldn't make it most of de time, and wif valid reasons, like coz i'm working and family stuff.. tt time when we were supposed to meet for breakfast i didn't go.. coz i had no money and it was my first day of work so i did not wan to be late or whatever.. coz i noe if de time will always be dragged.. and since i had no money i had to take frm my parents which i realli dun wan to.. coz i dun wan to increase their burden lor.. i dun wan to kp taking money frm them.. and if i went i could not eat and i would hav to sit down dere and watched all of u eat, which i guess most of u all oso dun like tt feeling de.. and i did sae to karen tt i wan slp more co i would be working everyday frm tt day onwards, and still had to go sch earli den go straight to work.. but u all assumed tt i gave de reason tt i wan to slp more..but to u all, are these reasons crap and excuses? and jas, i did admit tt i was at fault.. i didn't sae tt i should not be blamed for anytink.. i said tt i am oso at fault coz i didn't take de initiative to contact u all.. i didn't shift de blame to u all lor.. realli wad.. i do feel left out and extra most of de times.. like dere was one time when u all asked me to meet.. i forgot wad i had on coz i said i couldn't go coz of some reasons.. den u all said tt at lot 1 ma.. so very fast de.. go chat for a while.. so i went.. and u all juz showed me de cake tt u all had bought for karenand had decorated it urselves & asked me whether it was nice.. .. and her birthday was over le.. i mean at tt time i was tinking am i transparent.. why did u all ask me to go see de cake tt u all had bought specially for karen only.. i mean anyone would have been hurt oso rite.. i mean its okie if u bought de cake for her but u all asked me to meet u all juz to look at de cake ar..and of course i treasure de friendship.. its 4 yrs plus lehx.. i nvr had frens for so long a period of time.. tts why i tink tt u all will be dere no matter wad.. so even if we dun contact we can still get along.. guess i'm wrong.. hais.. i dunno how to improve our friendship.. i am at a loss as to wad to do.. dis is realli wad i tink frm de bottom of my heart.. and i realli didn't tink tt our friendship was a prob at all.. till carol suddenly tagged me all of a sudden.. den everytink tt happened flowed through my mind.. and ru, tt day when we went kbox realli nothing happen.. coz i was juz tired.. its other small incidents accumulated de.. anyway, thanks tze, u are de onli one who didn't realli scold me.. hais.. i tink we should all cool down now.. and ren, i realli tink tt i am nt important at all.. i am juz a piece of junk tt is useless.. u tink i realli always purposely dun go those outings de meh.. its coz i got a lot of probs hav to settle first de lo.. u all should noe if i wan to go out i hav to plan realli early or someties last min coz everytime smthg will crop up.. like jas b'dae i can't even stay wif u all for long.. i had to rush hm.. don't u realise its always me who had to encounter dis kind of probs.. i oso dun wan de lor.. vonne, gatherings always made me troubled but look forward to at de same time de.. coz i hav to ask my parents can go not den hav to take money frm them.. and den still ahv to tink who will look aft my sis all tt.. b4 i can go peacefully to de outings.. its always me who affect all of ur mood.. i rather dun go den u i wun affect u all at all.. tts why i tink dis way.. hais.. i realli dunno wad to do and sae.. coz i noe its all my fault now rite.. i am so confused as to wad to do.. someone juz tell me wad to do and i will do as u sae..

going to blog for a few mins b4 i go for work again.. hais.. so tired.. but still i must hang on.. tinking of de money i earn makes me feel so happy and contented..and yesterdae i was so happy too.. coz my dad came to fetch me hm frm work so i do not hav to squeeze wif de ppl in de train and bus.. hahas.. den we went to a handphone shop and den i saw a piggy pouch.. so cute lor.. and it was de same pig tt mavis like.. so i bought one for her.. den dad allowed me to buy one for myself oso.. so we hav de same hp pouch.. hope u like it lehx.. coz u kp buying me tinks i nvr buy for u de.. hahas.. dunno y dad yesterdae so gd.. den pass by a coffeeshop while waiting for my sis.. den he asked me wanna eat not.. so we bought 10 chicken wings.. yummy! and later i'm going for my class chalet le.. yay.. first time i going chalet wof my classmates.. hahs.. dun sae tt i am so sua ku hor.. coz in de past my parents dun allow me to go de.. so now i can go coz i am grown up.. hahas.. tink meeting mavis first b4 going... coz i do not noe how to go at all..but i noe its at pasir ris.. gonna sit down and chat wif mavis de whole night long.. but i'm afraid tt i will be so tired and den slp.. coz nxt day got work ma.. but i'll try to play as much as i can.. since i do not realli get to go chalet often de.. got to go prepare for work le.. hais.. boring dae till i reach de chalet..

its been long since i blog ya..these few daes working ma so do not realli hav de time to blog anymore.. two tinks i'm looking forward to: can't wait for de chalet to cum.. hahas.. though i can't stay for long but still i can go chat wif mavis which i haven't for a long time.. nxt i am hoping for 10 of dec to cum.. coz i wun hv to work anymore.. so tired and boring aft all these days.. hais.. but still 19 more days to go b4 my freedom.. sobx.. todae heard frm karen tt they are going to sentosa dis sun.. so de first tink she said was hey, u noe we sun going sentosa not.. so i was like huh? of course i dunno at all, coz no one told me.. and she asked if i could take leave not.. its like so short notice how could i.. and i tink even if i go i wun be realli happy at all.. hais.. would I? and seems like i am always de last one to noe of their outing.. and i realli tink tt whether i'm present or not doesn't matter a single bit.. coz i'm always de extra one.. and whenever we meet tgt.. its like i'm always de one being ignored.. its true lor.. guess u all nvr notice.. u all always seem to notice karen and den dun care bout me de.. its like coz i wil always be wif karen den meet u all aft tt.. den i saw u all i was so happy.. den de first tink u all said was hey karen, miss u so much or whatever.. i was always de one standing dere motionless till someone noticed me and tok to me..tt realli dampened my spirits.. i noe i'm not as popular as karen.. so i should not expect too much de.. hais.. we are drifting further and further away.. maybe its better to stay dis way.. i dun realli noe wad to do.. but i can onli sae let nature take its own course. . . anyway.. i am realli getting sick of working liao... so boring everyday de.. shall test my endurance.. but its still a long way to go.. de guy working tgt wif me is okie la.. shall name him as wc.. sometimes find him not gd.. sometimes tink he's okie.. i dunno la.. coz of some tinks he say make me feel tt way.. hais.. a lot of tinks to sae but i'm at a loss for words..

went for a short briefing on my new job.. onli for bout 2 hrs like tt.. hahas.. muz wear de uniform given..which is de santa coat, hat and belt.. and i am supposed to sell cookies in a gingerbread hse... so cute lehx.. nxt time muz take pics.. hope dere will be ppl buying la.. if not i would be so bored and hav to stand outside and solicit.. so i juz hope to stay inside and ppl will walk in and buy.. hahas.. tt will be gd.. i hav already planned my schedule.. i m going to work till dec 10 and den for de rest of de daes, i am going to study hard and go shopping at de same time.. promised to go vivo city wif mavis.. and den maybe will go mac or library everydae to study.. so tt i would be able to avoid de distractions at hm.. hahas.. coz i oso hav to go genting ma.. at de end of dec.. so i hav to buy more clothes.. coz i realli very long nvr go shopping le.. haahs.. since new yr and my cousin's wedding cuming soon.. so i shall take de chance to go on a shopping spree den.. juz hope tt i will not spend a lot wif my hard-earned money.. got a lot of tinks to buy de.. hav to treat mavis coz owe her one.. and den hav to buy clothes, shoes, bags, and a lot of stuff la.. wait till i get my pay first.. hais.. still a long wait b4 money comes.. hais money, i wan u badly..

hais.. todae realli so unlucky lehx.. so not in a gd mood.. at first was okie de.. coz i went for gp lesson.. den maths.. surprisingly i stayed attentive till like de later part of de lesson den i was like a bit day-dreaming le.. hahas.. always like tt de lehx.. dunno y.. hehe.. aft tt got break ma.. den went for chem.. but so boring de.. i was like half awake and trying to slp wif my eyes opened.. like how those goldfishes slp.. hahs.. and i realli dunno y fanella's class like so wad de lo. dun noe how to explain.. they always make me feel tt they are toking bad bout me.. like once i was caught by one of de idiotic bio teacher ( u noe de two bio teachers who always like walk wif their heads high), den one grp of their classmates was like dere and they was like looking how i got scolded.. den later when i was walking to gp class den they were walking behind me and toking so loudly lor.. they were like imitating my actions and words and den kp laughing.. my sec sch fren was oso in their class ma.. i dun understand how she can be like dis too.. so disappointed lor.. and they were realli damn bad rite.. juz laugh at me de.. den juz now chen they were like sitting in front of us.. den they were like whispering to each other and den de gals's eyes were always looking sideways at us.. so irritating lor.. and de guys kp turning back.. i realli hate dis lor.. i mean who likes being gossiped bout.. they can juz se directly into my face tt they dun like me rite.. stop doing tt lor.. it realli gets to my nerves.. but den surprised when one of de guy turned back and tok to us.. coz we were like planning to leave earli and they were oso too.. so he asked how are we going to leave.. so i juz like replied juz walk away like tt lor.. den i was like replying back to him while walking.. so i was not looking at him.. sorry if i made u feel tt i am giving u de cold shoulder and was kinda rude.. but coz i was a bit pissed.. hais.. but i'm perfectly fine now.. coz i slept for like 3 hrs straight aft i reached hm.. okay, i'm becoming more of a pig now.. hahas.. i ponned choir again.. actually planned to go de.. but coz i told mr Tay tt i hav to work which was realli true.. but coz i did not expect me to quit.. and since i was feeling a bit sick wif de runny & blocked nose, and a slight cough.. so i decided to go hm to rest aft buying files wif mavis.. finally she bought de files.. can't believe how organised she is .. she can't do hmwk if her notes are messy and she can't study if she nvr buy dividers and separate all de diff chapters.. hahas.. she's so systematic de.. i am always teasing her bout dis.. but i noe she dun mind de.. hais.. sometimes we realli a bit stubborn lor.. always like wun give in to each other.. dunno how it will be like if we hav conflicts.. maybe nxt yr we wun be close anymore.. its realli hard to sae.. since its like now i'm foreseeing smthg like tt is gonna happen.. but i realli do hope our friendship would last.. coz i realli do prefer having a few close frens rather den having lots of aquaintances.. at least when i face obstacles and they will always be dere for me rite.. i hope so..

since i am not working, i went for remedial classes.. hahas.. actually planned to go for maths at 8.10 budden couldn't wake up.. i was a bit sick ma.. wif de flu and drooping eyes.. so i juz couldn't get out of my comfortable bed at all..hehe.. so decided to pon.. lucky mavis helped me to take attendance.. thanks mavis! den went sch at bout 9 plus.. bought mac for mavis and kelly since on de way.. but scared i was late den ms cheong would be waiting ma.. so quickly walked to find her.. heng she was in a gd mood.. so i asked her qns bout chem lor.. first time i so guai... hahas.. coz i dun wan to repeat de same old mistake again ma.. den hav to worry bout results all tt.. so its not very gd.. i rather i start now.. den i'll feel better nxt yr.. during chem, coz raymond was like drawing some kinda animal and so i asked him wad was tt.. den he said tt was a mole.. but i tot it looked like a penguin or even a seal.. so i was so amused.. but somehow it looks like a mole too.. den mavis was like asking wad a mole was.. den we were like laughing coz very funny ma.. den i told her u dunno meh.. de mole on de face, body all tt de la.. hahas.. so hilarious lor.. den eventually told her de truth.. mole very cute de lo.. they got those very round heads and den would pop out of de soil suddenly de.. den they would always look left and right b4 disappearing into de hole again.. so damn cute lor.. hahas.. cartoon oso got ma.. mavis shld go watch la.. hehe..aft all remedials ended, mavis accompanied me to centrepoint for an interview.. met bentink ( is it spelled correctly) on de train.. den mavis always tok bout smthg very funny de.. make us laugh.. he found a gd job lehx.. at raffles hotel.. so high class de.. guess it will be quite stressful working dere isn't it.. but de pay is gd and de job is not so tedious.. so is quite gd lor.. anyway, when we reached dere, i went john little to return de promoter badge first.. coz casline was like reminding me to go return.. as if money i didn;t wan like tt.. and i dun even care to reply her.. coz i am still angry.. hais.. surprisingly, de staff dere was quite cheerful.. gues they were in a gd mood todae.. so i was like a bit stunned by their overwhelming response.. hahas.. i find it realli so weird.. den wenT centrepoint for interview.. couldn't find de place initially coz they gave me de add wrongly.. hahas.. in de end we found it coz mavis asked someone.. thanks again.. den we were like so stressed sitting down dere and de high class ppl were walking here and dere.. i feel so inferior in front of them.. i was called for interview wif a gal called xueling.. i felt so comfortable like i was wif someone who was very close to me.. seems like she was realli an easy-going gal.. so in de end she told me all de details and told me to wait for de fone call.. so i was quite worried i couldn't get de job..mavis was like assuring me tt i can do it.. so i received a call later tt i was selected.. i was like so happy.. jumping for joy.. hahas.. den went to serena's office to fill in my particulars all tt.. all de ppl i met todae was so friendly lor.. made me feel so relaxed de.. i was so eager to tell my mum but den she had gone for work.. so shall tell her later.. my dad too.. yipee!! all de past days i had bee n tinking whether i would get a job.. so now i am more relieved le.. aft much hassle, we went to eat KFC.. de food was nt realli nice dere.. a bit diff.. mavis kp complaining de chicken was black and etc,, hahas.. wanted to go find tricia and jasmin de.. but tri was like already on de way going hm le, and jas was not working in giordano lehx.. couldn't find her.. so we went taka to find xinyi.. since i was like going to meet serena dere.. found her and did smthg stupid lo.. hahas.. shan't elaborate.. den walked around got a lot of kiddy stuff.. all de toys very interesting lo.. nowadays de children are so fortunate.. last time i didn't even got barbie dolls.. i onli got polly pocket and de small figures kp disappearing coz it was so small and i kpt losing it.. hahas.. mavis especially liked all these stuff.. and coz she told me tt xinyi sae got one guy cashier very gd-looking so we decided to check it out.. hahas.. but too bad tt guy wasn't dere.. but de others were not bad too.. hahas.. den when mavis was paying, one guy was like being funny la.. i dunno why i laugh oso.. but seems like he's interested in mavis.. hahas.. mavis, ur mei li wu fa dang.. kp attracting guys wherever u go.. hehe.. anyway we went back aft tt le.. nothing much to update le.. shall end here..

thanks to them tt i am now sitting at hm doing nothing.. realli thanks to u all lor.. if not i would not be wasting my time at hm.. dun even feel like studying at all.. i'm realli in a bad mood.. hais.. i am so so hoping to get a job soon.. i dun wan waste so much time at hm when i should be earning money instead.. and if it wasn't for them i wouldn't be like dis now.. juz now xinyi called me and said they actually wanna put me in taka de.. but den i quit le.. but i tot tt was an excuse lo.. i mean if they realli mean to give me de job den they should hav told me earlier ma.. they nvr even open their mouth to sae or ask how i was doing.. its like everyday i hav to call them and ask wad i hav to do de nxt day.. its kinda troublesome u noe..and nvr mind tt.. i got scolded by de staff dere almost everyday de lo.. they kp picking on me.. but still i endured it.. and i was all alone during dis diff period.. no one to tok to, no one to pour my sorrows to, no one to console me at all.. i was so lonely and helpless.. but i still got over it.. hais.. its realli unfair.. realli.. even till now when i kp tinking bout all these.. i'm still feeling angry and tot tt it was so not worth it at all.. its okay jielin.. u musT live a better life den them .. to prove to them tt even without them u can still lead a wonderful life.. trust me u can..

went job hunting jusT now.. wasn't a realli sucessful one.. hope someone would call me soon.. tml going sch for extra remedial lessons.. since i did so badly for my mid-course exams.. i muz jiayou so tt i would nt repeat de same mistake of always studying at de last min again.. muz start everytink during de hols.. aft tt going for interview.. hope tt i would be shortlisted.. hoping..

okay.. i had so much fun todae.. aft one wk of endless working..finally had a chance to wake up later den usual.. slept till 12 plus.. guess i was realli tired.. haha.. den our whole family decided to go out and asked grandma along.. we went to Marina Bay to eat.. dere's a hawker centre dere.. forgot de name but de food dere is realli nice.. so long since i ate so many tinks at one time.. we ordered a lot.. chicken cutlet, chicken chop, fish and chips, laksa, hokkien mee and satay.. yummy! i was like eating almost everytink i could in one blow.. haha.. can't believe it but i ate most of de food as they were too full to finish it.. haha.. i'm de" da wei wang".. den we went to take a stroll at de beach.. played wif de water and i forgot tt i shouldn't be doing tt coz i had blisters on my feet.. so they were immersed in de water for quite some time and it was realli painful as some of de sand went into de open wound and sticked on it.. wah regretted playing in de water.. my younger sis la.. kp urging me to play wif her.. haha.. den in de end i could not resist den go play wif her.. but i had an enjoyable day! but i am still hoping to find a job soon..

my blood is boiling now.. i am realli pissed off wif de way they treat me lor.. i mean i'm his cousin lor.. and he had to be so unfair to me.. i mean not tt he should be biased towards me la.. but he should at least let me work in a fixed place and not ask me to travel around and sort out de goods.. he asked me to be a promoter and now i hav to run all these errands for him? and dunno y he treats them better.. its so unfair.. haiz.. nvr mind.. i fired him le.. hahas.. i am planning to quit.. dis job is realli tiring and diff for me.. i hav to do wad i am not supposed to do..if he said tt right in de beginning tt i hav to do all these den i realli dun mind.. but he juz ask me to cum and den told me tt i hav to run all these errands by myself.. i'm a person wif no sense of direction at all.. so how do u expect me to go all these places by myself.. and when i ask u all den u all sound irritated.. its me who should feel tt way.. hais.. and their job is much more an easier task.. and they hav company.. whereas i am always alone.. always.. for de past one wk.. practically i am de onli one and they seldom drop by.. and i always hav to kp asking them wad to do and they will be frustrated.. but realli ma.. i hav to ask them de ma.. its like all these tinks hav to be done by them rather den me.. i am juz a small employee.. who noes wad those complicated stuff they are toking bout... hais.. i should go find another job soon.. since i'm in nd of a lot of money.. i hav a lot of tinks to buy.. hahs..wanna go on a shopping spree..wee.. wait till i find a job.. mavis has left for genting le.. will be back onli on mon nite.. will miss her lor.. although i nvr sae.. todae actually wanna call her coz got a lot of stuff to tell her.. and wanted to ask her for directions coz she is more familiar dere.. but den recalled she was not in singapore.. hais..

i am seriously unlucky todae.. and i was in a worse of de worse mood of all.. realli will hate dose evil john little staff for life.. of course not all but some are realli damn irritating.. i swear i will get back at them.. all wif serious attitude prob.. its not like u all are de ones busy onli, i'm oso busy lor.. and i juz ask for smthg and u all had to be so unwilling and ignored me.. fine.. i'll be back one fine day.. juz u wait.. mavis went to meet me for lunch todae and yest.. so happy.. coz finally i got ppl to pei me le.. i'm not lonely anymore.. haha.. and tt john little kp playing de i'm so lonely song.. purposely de lor.. haha.. we ate at burger king for de past two days.. a bit sick of it le.. but since i'm not working dere le so i dun tink i will eat at burger king for a period of time.. was a bit late for work coz todae we had choir practice.. quite fun la.. we had our warm-ups b4 singing christmas songs.. i guess we will be practicing christmas songs throughout de holidays.. and i can say tt we hav quite a lot of practices going on.. but tink i should go since i hav always been pon-ing it often.. when sch reopens i tink i will pon again de.. coz hav to study realli hard.. i must not slack again..

now in sch blogging.. its my off day todae! yea.. but still havta go sch earli for my oral presentation.. onli slept for like 6 hrs which is realli not enough at all.. i hav to slp at least 10 hrs to be fully energised.. haha.. i can't do anytink without slp.. will be bad-tempered de whole dae.. finally OP is over.. we waited and was nervous for so long juz for de 5 mins of presentation.. it was realli not worth it at all.. but coz our asessors were fine.. we had mr bryan lim and another indian lady.. dunno who.. but both was okie.. winnie's grp was oso our audience.. felt so much at peace when i saw them.. so relieved man.. i stuttered a lot while presenting la.. and coz i didn't wan to rely too much on de script so i tried not to look but den kp forgetting de words.. haiz.. den de qn was asked by Bryan lim so quite okie.. c his face not tt nervous le.. haha.. he got those innocent type of look ma.. hope i answered his qn.. tink okie la overall.. hope we wun get too bad for our pw.. later going to buy shoes and stuff wif sis..

i'm so tired these few days.. work was okie but its worth it coz i always tink of de money when i feel sian or lethargic.... but tt idiotic supervisor had to scold me when it was realli none of her business la.. i mean she kept asking me chim qns when it was my first day dere and i noe nothing! nvr mind..i shall be magnanimous and dun care bout her.. haha.. i'm so pathetic oso.. gotta eat lunch alone.. haiz.. no choice lor.. coz i nd alot alot of money ma.. so havta work hard for de sales.. but seriouly its realli boring coz dere's not a lot of ppl dere de.. so i can't manage to hit de sales target of $5000 per wk.. its so diff la.. i shall try my best so tt i can get more commision.. though its not a lot..

i'm realli realli upset todae.. although i managed to scrape thru, i'm not as happy as i expected.. when they showed de list todae, my heart was like thumping so hard.. i was so scared and trembling.. when i saw my class and i was praying so hard for our whole class to promote tgt.. i realli do hope so.. but still we lost 3 fantastic classmates.. i couldn't believe my eyes.. i wanted so much for all of us to promote tgt.. though i am not so close to u all, but i realli feel so upset.. when u all cried i was almost on de verge of crying too.. especially eel and cc.. both of u made me feel tt i was so lucky.. it was juz sheer luck tt i am promoted.. pw has brought us closer but in fact it has also caused some disputes btw us.. but everytink is over now.. we can get along well now, can't we? i will miss u all de.. hj u were so strong.. i realli admire u.. will miss u all.. sobx.. trust me, i will..

omg.. came across dis webbie somewhere.. and its my previous sec sch la.. why so unlucky kana caught.. if scott chew and rashidah is still dere den they will be dead meat..
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was realli pissed wif my bro's gf.. she realli idiotic lor.. kp calling our hse number.. imagine de phone kp ringing everytime and when i wanna call someone i can't coz my bro is hogging onto de phone.. den when my bro is not at hm, they kp calling la.. 5 mins call once.. already sae he not at hm le.. where gto 5 mins cum back le.. can't they understand simple english.. and does she have to ask her bro and sis to help call oso.. y don't ask her whole family to call.. wah liao.. weird gal lor.. den yest ask her bro to call and even threatened to beat me up if i bluff them.. pls lor.. i'm not so childish as to bluff u all lor.. de fact si tt he's not at hm.. no matter how many times u call he will not appear de lor.. argh.. blood vessel gonna burst le..

yea.. i got a job le..finally.. starting work on sat.. den got money le..yea.. can buy a lot of tinks liao.. hahas..damn happy.. hope mavis can work oso..den we can work tgt ma.. even can hav lunch tgt.. coz i got an hr lunch break..den hav to eat alone.. so pathetic.. but still i'm so happy!

okie.. i'm getting kinda panicky now.. one more dae b4 'A' levels chinese.. and i will get my result slip back.. realli gonna retain le la.. i hav already imagined a lot of times when i get back de slip and it shows i'm retained.. i dun tink i can take it de.. hope i wun cry and embarrass myself man.. so damn scared.. couldn't they juz tell us now.. at least i can be prepared ma.. some of my frens already know they are promoted le.. so y do they hav to keep us in suspense and make me all de while speculating.. can't stop tinking bout it.. juz hav to resign to fate..
so energised todae.. coz i can slp in later.. woke up at bout 11.. haha.. i'm still so fond of slping.. actually planned to study de but no source of motivation.. its realli hard to get an A for chinese lor.. i kp getting a C instead.. dunno how to improve on it oso.. aiya dun care le.. juz study and c de outcome.. hais..
yea.. dad bought supper for us.. but my little sis ate so much la.. hahas..ask her not to eat so much but she dun wan listen.. now becoming more and more overweight le.. hahas..but still very cute.. :]