interview for SIA cabin crew with xinyi todae. and expected, we failed! i mean for me, its kinda expected. lols. u know having to compete with thousands of eligible gals, of course its difficult. but i passed the first round, went to second round, try out the kebaya, had to walk in tt suffocating kebaya for them to access, then my most dreaded thinggy came, so i guess i lost in tt area. anw, they only chose 1 out of our group, but its definitely an enriching experience! k session aft tt, quite an impromptu decision, we both felt tt it wasn't enough though it was cheaper. and then bought a casual bag, wah liao, always can't resist temptation even though i purposely dun bring enough money, or sometimes really not enough money. but still, quite worth it.

i guess its time to let go, there are still many other alternatives right? yeah, i guess tomorrow will be a better day.:)

oh my:) i forgot to update on ren's b'dae celebration.

whee, it was fun! lols. plan was to ice-skate, ended up playing pool, lunched at kobayashi, bus-ed to holland v, had ice- crream at cold rock. i liked the swings esp, tried lots of flavours since some of them had second round. i tried ferrero indulgence, plain but nice, forgot to add toppings but turned out to be good. i liked the dark choc as it was sweet, not bitter! and den presented rens with the calender we handmade, guess mine was ugly, but i tried my best kaes, must appreciate hor rens:) i tink i'm getting to like pool. managed to hit in a ball or two, considered okay for a beginner hor. i must master the game someday, interesting interesting~

omg, fridae's the big day. talked to ren on the phone, we decided not to go tt early to get our results. reasons are a lot, but not convenient to voice here. i noe its a reality we can't avoid, no matter wad we still have to face it, but at least i'll have more time to prepare myself, its gonna be a long and fretful day, still wondering whether i shld turn up for work and take half-day leave, or just stay at hm, numb myself by slping. i really dunno la.

actually i alrdy predicted everything, its just whether i wanna accept it and look for other alternatives.

exceptionally happy todae. i dunno why:) lols. anw, kailin left! so sad, but i'm happy tt she found a better job in a bank. so envy her. next time i'll definitely ask her to help me look for jobs. she got so many lobangs, and the pay not bad la! will miss the morn and evening rides on the bus wif her sitting nxt to me, and crapping wif each other. sadded.

shhat. they said hello to me out of the blue and i smiled and said they were siao. i dunno if they heard it.lols. but can't blame me la, i was shocked u noe.:)

i'm disappointed in you, seriously. nvr expected things to turn out like this. i swear i wun look for you again, or whatsoever. its not the time to start debating who shld be blamed, but find a way to solve the situation. but yet, u kp blaming me for it. its ridiculous. and you shouldn't have promised me anything when you wasn't even clear of it.