i have been eating a lot for the past two weeks, i realized, i meant really a lot. i can feel the pounds adding on to my weight. shit. need to eat lesser, or exercise alr): sis's b'dae we went to some restaurant which has nice chinese cuisine, forgot the name, but i really think its nice, have been gg back for quite a lot of times, and i saw youmei there too! and den today we went to hk cafe, and of course i ate a lot, again!! i just can't resist temptation, dunno how ppl can lose weight without eating, i definitely cannot, but i'll try though. hahah. somemore cny is coming, and if i kp on eating, i can't fit into any clothes, and during cny i'll be busy eating again! sighs!!

anw, i'm looking forward to cny this time round, cos i'll be gg overseas with my family! BUT, its just nearby batam only la, but i'm still excited cos its been long since i went overseas tgt with my family, i think the last time was like two or three years ago to thailand. hmm, so cny day 1 and 2 will be gg bai nian, get angbao! and den third and fourth day to batam. aft tt will be back to work again. audit is coming, its for real this time! i think aft cny will be it alr, so need to add more oil for coaching files, planning to clear tt b4 cny.
stressed):

today i went shopping with my ah ma at bugis! super super crowded i can tell you, i almost wanted to kill ppl inside. and i got bumped into by a guy really hard i almost fly off, tt one really pissed me off. nvr even sae sorry, so i was thinking he was doing it deliberately lorr): anw, bought a new bag, cos my previous bag was alr torn, a pair of shoes, and a clutch! the clutch was super ex, $59.90!! didn't want to buy initially, but my ah ma asked me to buy cos i'm gg for the pru dnd on the 10th feb and she wanted to pay for me. so ya, i feel so bad!! love my ah ma a lot, really:D and of course the rest of the purchases i paid myself la.

thought abt wad i'm gonna do in future, couldn't get an outcome aft thinking for ages, but now i guess i have the ans. i am going to take up a UOL degree for the next intake, banking and finance most prob, and then in the meanwhile i'll just take the u know wad exams first, quickly pass tt and then when apr comes, i'll just try wad my boss always wanted me to do. i'll just try la, dunno if i can make it or not. if really can't, den i'll most prob leave this job, and look for other part time jobs while i study my degree. if i'm alright, like at least can meet the mark, den i'll just continue with that and my current job and also my degree as well. tts provided if i can cope la, if cannot cope den see how lorrrrr. tts my plan for now, but i still nd more advice, to prove tt my decision and choice is right! or wrong):

2ml meeting kgang for bf after so long! crossing my fingers for carol to be late, den i can get a treat from her! yayyyyy

i was in a super bad mood today,

but 海派甜心 really made my day. felt so much better after watching a few episodes. its really funny, at least it made me forget all those stupid stuff tt made me unhappy for a while. so yup, 2ml is the start of a new week again, back to routine work ):

i'm back from bintan! Whee, it was super fun! (: but i didn't get to go on the beach! sighs, cos we were so busy with all the stuffs there, no time to even go to the beach. so i decided, i am gg to back there again! hahas. i'm so lazy to blog, but activities were fun, like paintball, and playing ball games in the pool, plus playing werewolf games in the night. this game is tough, requires a lot of brainwork, joann kp saying my analytical skills are really bad, i admit tt. cos i really can't deduce who's telling the truth and who's lying, so i am sort of always accusing the wrong person of being the werewolf. but anyway it was fun, at least i manage to guess once correctly and i saved the village! yay, hahha.

really love the buggy ride over there, super exciting! esp if u're sitting behind, like i always do. hahahs. paintball was thrilling too, i didn't get any blu-black at all, lucky me! terry was like complaining tt he was trying to shoot me but couldn't hit me, the bullets just flew past me, almost hitting me. and i think i hit some ppl but i dunno who. sorry guys! the blu-black tt they got was like super big, i guess its very painful.

loved the food there too, esp the poolside dinner, chilli crabs, beef steak, curry chicken and the cakes! i ate a lot really. the bbq was not bad too, love the chicken wings but i didn't get to try the cheese mussels and quite a lot of stuff too. i really really enjoyed myself there, this is the first time i went for an overseas retreat with acho, and i hope i will get to go again next time(: anw, was kind of fearing the ferry ride to and fro, and luckily i took motion sickness pills, thanks to may and lynn, if not i may be vomiting inside the ferry. and the ferry ride back home was terrible! me and lily was screaming, really like roller coaster ride man. i felt so embarrassed aft tt. but lynn was like telling us to try to slp, and we did, anw the sea was less choppy aft we left indonesia waters so we slept all the way. and when lenny was sending us back hm, i was like semi-conscious in the car, too tired alr. hahhas.

i hope i can go to a lot more countries in future, cos i just love travelling! (:

today we went for the upcoming bintan tip briefing, seems like its gonna be lots of fun! hahahs, and thank god i'll not be playing any games, if not sure be "sabo-ed". anw, i dunno wad to bring there yet, and i dun even have a luggage or those hand carry bag that i can bring over. anyone can spare me??!! ):

just a pack of lies, i shld have known. sighs, so disappointed ):

its the end of 2009! and 2010 is here, with a blink of an eye.

i finally completed my SIM dip after struggling for 15 months, i guess the environment doesn't suit me at all. but all i can say is that i learnt a lot from there, good and bad stuff, which i've alr get used to thereafter. but i'm really glad its over (:

anw, i feel that time is flying right now, compared to the past when i kept thinking of growing up quickly so that i can do things that i'm not allowed or supposed to do. but it really doesn't seem to be easy being an adult afterall. and i'm turning 21 this Apr! 21 means i have to shoulder more responsibilites and definitely there will be more troubles and stuff. i dun like all these):

i really really miss my sec and jc sch life, its definitely more enjoyable than now. and somemore i dun have any direction right now, shld i continue to take up a degree, or just continue working? heard lots of advice from different ppl, but i still have to make the final decision myself and its damn difficult. i hate making decisions!

we managed to make our new year resolutions before the countdown, SO i hope to get my driving license asap, go for at least one overseas trip(hopefully not neighbouring countries), get a degree or get something out of my work at least, i just hope that i will achieve something in my life and not nothing. Lastly, the most important thing is my family, i hope what i fear will never ever happen again. hopefully, my relationship with my dad will improve, its improving la, but i can't say the same in future. cos whenever i look at him, the scene will kp replaying in my mind, i can't seem to forget. but i know that i have to forgive and forget, cos he's still my dad no matter wad. like wad jas said, i hope next time when i look back and talk abt it, i will be smiling and everything will seem so small and insignificant. i dunno why, my family is really my weak point, whenever i talk abt them to anyone, i will get emotional easily. guess it means they are really important to me, so i must also learn to treasure and cherish them as well. and of course kgang also plays a very important role in my life, since sec sch, they have been my best pals, we grew up a lot tgt, and i got a lot of advice and experienced a lot with them. i hope we can all stay like wad we are now, and grow old tgt? hahas. and not forgetting mavis too, one of my best frens in jc, luckily we still kp in contact, and hopefully we will still meet up frequently in future. but she's forever busy, so ya, i still hope she will set aside time for me.. hahhas.

AND FOR NOW, i'm trying to look forward to something to get me going. but there's really nothing leh, except maybe the Bintan trip next week? and CNY maybe...

oh ya, i really should go and get a laptop soon, dun wanna impose on michael for too long.. hahas.