thinking back, i found myself kind of childish to leave home in the middle of the night..just because i was angry wif my family for not providing me a suitable studying environment.and tt is the main reason why i couldn't focus on studying. but they don't understand.they kp thinking tt its a small prob.but to me, its realli a big prob.tts why i wanted to go out and study everytime.hais.but i returned back hm aft an hr coz i realli dunno where to go.and my bro came down to look for me.just in time to deter the Bangala who was lurking behind.at tt time,i just wanted my bro to just go away and let the Bangala kill me.i was so angry and frustrated tt i dun care. but i knew my mum called my bro to ask for me.but i just wanted to shout in their ear tt i was dead.if i continue to waste my time coz of the prob of studying environment,my studies will realli be affected. nvr mind.its over.i noe i'm stupid to have done tt.

anw,i'm quite disappointed tt u dun understand me at all.if you're my fren,u wouldn't care so much bout me not acc you, but rather,i tot u would understand tt i have my own reasons. and i was trying to ask xy to pei u when u said dun nd.but i noe deep down u nd her,or just anyone.coz u are not independent.everywhere you go, there will always be ppl accompanying u.even when you go hm so how can u sae you dun nd ppl to pei. i noe i'm realli a bad fren, not like ur pri or sec sch frens who always care and give you good advice or even encourage you.i'm not like them.maybe coz i'm not experienced in relationships or any other things tt your good frens can provide solutions for.somemore a lot of ppl kp saying i bully you or treat you badly.so sometimes i wonder, are we realli good frens or acquantainces?