I did it again.

out at woodlands lib wif karen,carol and jas..as usual they came later. so long nvr meet them so happy! missing vonne coz she got family dae.didn't manage to finish my hmwk todae.tinking of ponning tml.so sian lor.


the malaysia incident realli pissed me off.i feel so not worth it for my daddy. 3 on 1. what a big bully they are.its so unfair lor.and the police are so corrupted. whereas singapore police can't even do anything to help.shld at least let them pay for compensation.damn angry la.

went causeway point and west mall just now. window shopping around. and lunched dere. hav to finish up my hmwk soon.plus revision.

fri during chem lesson i realised tt i realli dunno a lot of things.if i want to do well i realli hav to sacrifice everything.including blogging,shopping and slping. which i dun tink i can.but i HAVE to try, if not i'll realli die. i dun wan to regret when i get my results.i dun wan to lose to tt loser guy.prove to him tt i'm better den him.BLESS ME tt i'll study hard!



anyway, went woodlands lib to study wif mavis todae.karen and xiaowei oso dere. carol joined them later.not effective la.coz of my stupid nose. kp running and i couldn't conc.ended up i nvr complete anything.ate at macs again.told mavis bout the guy incident in MRT.she kp laughing.and i kp laughing at her.coz i was so honoured tt she embarrass herself coz of me.dun kill me if u see this.lolx.anyway, i'm sorry i'm late again.

ponned todae. karen said i nvr gave any signal. lolx.

gg to study hard frm now onwards.

but hope i wun be affected by any other factors.talked to karen bout my prob tt dae. poured out everything.she agreed tt i had a lot of restrictions. so its not i dun wan to study. its always a lot of probs and circumstances.but i felt better when she started crapping to cheer me up.glad tt finally someone noe how i feel,instead of telling me tt the prob lies wif me for being lazy and stuff. i admit i'm lazy and dun feel like studying at times, but its not totally tt.

past few days were so tiring.studying every moment.

i feel like gg to vivo.i dunno why.

went out wif whole family todae! finally got a chance, but sacrificed my studies instead.went to some temple, and drew a lot about my studies.

No 89:
one is well within and without.A valuable jade in the rock. A benefactor points out the way to obtain it. Everyone rejoices at your good fortune.
Interpretation: Good
A benefactor points out how to achieve it.Head him. To achieve the possession of the jade will surely gladden one's heart.

well, who's my benefactor then? Ah ma drew a bad lot which says family will be in trouble. no peace. its quite true.coz of her who doesn't really respect my ah ma.wth.

ate lunch,shop for groceries and went home.

went woodlands lib to study wif karen just now. tot it would be a good dae to start mugging..who noes i came down wif flu or maybe sensitive nose i dunno. so idiotic. i wanted to study but couldn't focus.wad a waste of time! den we went long john to hav lunch.saw mel dere. luckily our bags were still intact aft we returned. i was afraid tt the libarian would take our bags away.lolx. den i had to go home by 3. and karen wanted to cont studying.so i left first. loads of hmwk not done yet.loads of things haven revised yet. and ms goh is so good to print us a timesheet.and we are supposed to do 8 MCQ and 2 essay qns per dae. which i find it hard to follow.coz we still hav other sub. and left wif 6 wks to prelims!!! OMG.

We finally got back all our papers! sad to sae, i flunked everything. but i'm going to jiayou for prelim 2. i noe i nvr study hard enuff. Mavis take care kaes.u can do it de. we'll work hard tgt.

since you got MC den stay at hm to rest la. why must you still insist to go work.you are not young anymore, health is more impt.

school can nvr be more boring. but luckily time pass so quickly. demoralised again. what can i say? work harder for prelim 2.tts all.

PROM NIGHT on 27 NOV! need u gurls(jas,vonne,ru,ren,tze) to give me advice! must pei me go shopping oso kaes! and mavis, we'll go shopping soon too:) i'm thinking of going vivo!

OMG,daddy went to see a doc! he said he was having heart pains and stuff. i'm so worried la.hope he's okay.nothing must happen.

oh ya. and how irresponsible you all can be! i definitely can bet tt u received those msgs tt we sent and still refused to reply.we just wanted you all to help out a bit, and you just pushed everything to us. fine! we don't have to beg you for help. but the fact is tt you are not even guilty.arghx.pissed.

WAH LIAO EH. MY DADDY DOESN'T EVEN DARE TO SMOKE IN FRONT OF ME! AND DERE HE IS STANDING IN FRONT OF OUR DOOR AND HAPPILY SMOKING AWAY. I BET HE'S AWARE TT ITS DAMN SMELLY LA. WAN SMOKE DEN GO HIS HSE AND SMOKE LA. WHY MUST HE STAND IN FRONT OF OUR DOOR? I ADMIT I AM A BIT RUDE TO SLAM THE DOOR OR SHOUT ANGRILY AT U. BUT U REALLI WAN US DEAD LOR. SECOND-HAND SMOKE IS RELLI BAD U NOE, UNCLE?

ONE DAE I'LL DIE.

I still thought ELAINE'S DAO DAI WAS THE BEST!
AND THE JUDGE STILL CALLED HER NAME WRONGLY!ARGHX.

SENTOSA WAS REALLY GREAT.though i was forced to do smthg which i wouldn't dare to in the past. BUT other den tt, its realli been so long since i had played so hard and enjoyed myself so thoroughly! The Games we played, the food tt we shared. everything was fantastic man! but most imptly, i hoped tze enjoyed what we had prepared for her. BUT IT WAS SERIOUSLY DAMN HOT LA. i couldn't stand it. and i was so forgetful lor.i nvr brought a towel or shorts to change into.wth, so i had to change into a damp shorts and borrow a towel frm carol. and i noe i bathed very long, sorry vonne! and carol for lending me practically everything.we headed for coffee bean for dinner. i had blueberry cheesecake and southern blend iced tea.NICE! and my face was like realli burnt and red! at least ren and ru had nice red flush colours on their face, but mine was like shit.lolx. yest i was still very burnt and red.todae i am peeling. reminds me of mr how.hahas. but my shoulders and back are still damn painful. i cannot even sleep well! regretted not putting any sunblock.and cass kps calling me sentosa gurl! its disturbing la.hahas.though its funny.











































Got back most of our results. and i am still getting shitty grades.why? yeah i noe. coz i kp procrastinating and not studying at all. everyone is studying hard like crazy, but i can't seem to follow in their footsteps. i wonder why. lit got back two papers,still failing and mdm chintra called me weak. GP failed both compre and essay but i didn't expect to fail my essay. at least not so badly. smthg's wrong. and my chem is the worst, though i realli shld hav expected those kind of results but its realli too bad for me to take it.i disappointed ms goh, feel so ashamed when i see her. and i'm the chem rep, tts even worse.duh. econs case study was expected. i have taken enuff blows.Maths i dun even nd to think.definitely IN for STAR again for sure.

i noe i shld curb my stupid bad temper. i seriously noe its bad. but its realli hard to change.i can only relieve my anger thru throwing tantrums. and tt black face of mine whenever smthg goes wrong. like todae,i wanted to go shopping and buy either a top or a shorts. and i wanted to go bugis cox dere were more varieties over dere and i wanted my sis to acc me.but my mum said tt my sis would be tired and asked me to go somewhere nearer. which is lot 1.and i kp complaining tt dere is practically NOTHING i can buy.we lunched at kfc and i was still okay at tt time.but aft shopping around and realising tt nothing caught my eye, i was in a bad mood.i noe tt my mum and sis were constantly keeping a lookout for what i wan,but i kp rejecting them by saying tt it was ugly and stuff.but i just didn't like it and i will be pissed if i walked around the whole shopping mall without seeing smthg i like. finally they asked me to try on and since it was okay,they bought it for me.and it was my sis who paid for me,close to 40 bucks for a pair of shorts and they juz paid without complaining. i am so truely blessed to hav such a family but i always nvr treasure it. i always regret aft i treat them tt way.i promise to change, at least i will try. i know my parents alrdy try to give me what i want,no matter how hard up they are coz of our high expenses.i noe i shld not ask for anything more..


i guess its kind of awkward when i bump into you now.thanks to tt someone.

todae was the first day of school aft the long hols.so reluctant to go back.heard tt our chem mcq prelims was realli bad-average only 16! but if i could get 16,i would be contented. went thru some of the mcq qns and i failed badly.econs and maths were agAIN slacking time! went thru prelim papers.i knew i would fail badly even though i haven got back yet.nvr mind.work harder for prelim 2!

i actually thought of asking her out todae,since she said tt she was bored yest. but too bad she had plans. forever so popular and kp going out still sae tt she is not. so i am staying at home,rotting.not really,hahas. i have my mummy to acc me! we are going out later,though it is onli for a while.

sick and tired of SCHOOL tml! arghx.




miss the times in 4/6-everything was so fine till then.

wth!!i cannot go into MLG.whole load of assignments to complete! and i forgot the password! idiot piece of shit.not i dun wan do lor.HOW!!!

FINALLY i completed my prelims! but yest was realli torturing for me.i dudnot wan to go to sch badly.i hate sch like shit,but i am still forced to take the exam. so i went unwillingly.in the end,i was greatly demoralised by econs.i was stuck and stoning dere for so long.and i was trembling and so nervous.aft tt,i realli felt like flying back home lor.i did'nt wan to take chem anymore.struggling so hard whether to skip not.den heard tt ~ nvr took the exams too.so shocked.but in the end no choice.and i am glad to sae tt i took all the papers,no matter how i am going to flunk or screw it.now,i;m going to stay up to 9 in sch whenever i can to mug. prelims 2 i'm going to show the teachers who look down on me tt i can do it. even if they feel tt i'm usless or wad.i'm going to try my best and prove them wrong! just u wait and see.

aft chem i finally felt free so me and mavis went shopping!window shopping la.no money.and now GST 7%.OMG.hahas.and she bought a pregnancy kit for someone else. she was so embarrassed! so funny.we were laughing la.but i could still remain clam not like her so paiseh.lolx.

shit me. went out in the morn wif mummy and sis.den aft tt went out again to meet sis.when tml is the last dae of exam and i was supposed to be mugging.wth. and i am so suay and unlucky tt i saw his accomplice again.=(

let fate decide my results tml.

DONG BANG SHIN KI-UNFORGETTABLE

[JJ] gujeetmal modoo gujeetmaleejyo shiganee geudael eetkee gandan mar
[CM] eebyul eui apeun maeumeun jogeum moodyu jyuhtjeeman geudael hyanghan nah eui mam yujungee geudaeroeende

[JJ] swee ool guran saenggak ahn haetjeeman
[CM] maneun shiganee geulrussuhdo
[JJ, CM] neega ubseun gun nasulgeeman hae

*[ALL] ajeek saranghaneunde ahjeeknul wunhaneunde
[JJ] geudae ubshee nan gwaenchana jeer soo ubneungur

[ALL] meeryun hage boyudo
[CM] eege naeengur najocha molratjyo geudaeman geuree wuhhajyo

[YC] gujeetmal geugun guhjeetmaleejyo eejeneun guedael itgo sandan mar
[JS] nae moseub choraharkka bwa alryanghan jajoonshime geujuh haebon mar eel bboon geudaereul eetneun juk ubjyo

[YH] mameh andeun bureu dduholreemyuh
[JS] eejuhboryugo aereul ssuhdo
[YH, JS] geu moseubmajuh geuree wuhjeeneun

*[ALL] ajeek saranghaneunde ahjeeknul wunhaneunde
[YH] geudae ubshee nan gwaenchana jeer soo ubneungur

[ALL] meeryun hage boyudo
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[YC] nan mumchoon juk ubjyo geudael saranghaneun mam hanbundo byunhan juk ubsutjyo
[JS] anyo jumjum kujyoman ganeun sarangmankeum nae mamdo
[YC] danjee hamkkehaetdun geu shiganman gamanhee mumchwu bureengur oh~

[ALL] jakeun nae poom anesuh heemdeulusseul geudaereul
[JS] bonaen dwee ehyah heh aryuh bor soo ineungur

[ALL] But I love you everyday
[JJ] neul geuraetdeushee yujunhee geudaeman {chueumchurum} geedareego ineun naege
[YC] See you once again, my love