I am, of course, none other than blank verse. I don't know where I'm going, yes, quite right; And when I get there (if I ever do) I might not recognise it. So? Your point? Why should I have a destination set? I'm relatively happy as I am, And wouldn't want to be forever aimed Towards some future path or special goal. It's not to do with laziness, as such. It's just that one the whole I'd rather not Be bothered - so I drift contentedly; An underrated way of life, I find. What Poetry Form Are You?

yeah, i'm just like a blank verse. though i dun quite agreee with the last line. i'm not contented with what i have now, and i'm definitely NOT NOT bothered. i'm really getting tired this time round. i just feel like giving up, cooping myself up at home and forget the world outside. i noe this is not the time to give up. one more month and everything is over. but i just can't help it, the results are so demoralising, considering i nvr passed my H2 subjects, plus the so many other factors tts affecting me too much. i dunno why i just can't stop being influenced and conc on studying. the temptation to give up is just too big, overwhelming. sometimes i just think i dun reap what i sow, though i dun sow a lot. i noe it, but can't it be any better to encourage me at all? things just aren't going my way, i'm having a hard time. karen says not to give up, at least try my best and dun regret. but its getting out of my reach, really. and i'm gonna disappoint my beloved grandmother. i'm dashing her only hopes of me.

damn shit. my com broke down. but all i can sae tt it chose to break down at the right time, A levels coming, so i guess i'm not gonna blog anymore. tts good in a sense. but i decided to blog in sch, since its been quite long i nvr updated.


HAPPY BIRTHDAE VONNE AND XIAOWEI!!

sat was so fun! i waited so long for that dae to come, but seriously it just passed too fast. met up wif the gurls at cck. managed to trick them to meet at cck, surprisingly, they nvr complained! lol. i thought everyone really took the effort to dress up since we were heading for town and xiaowei's b'dae party in the evening. tricked vonne into believing tt we were going macs, of course she look a bit unwilling la. stupid vonne, still believe us. of course we are going suki la. as wad u wished. tze shld get the most credit for vonne's b'dae pressie, i must admit i didn't do much except settle my photo tingy. the rest did help. sorry vonne! cos i wasn't able to meet them on thurs. i thought this time round we didn't eat much at suki. wasted. and vone was touched and brimming wif tears. omg, emotional vonne la! and she was forced to change into a dress which was expected to be nice. finally she wore a dress! lol. walked around shopping aft tt and headed for xiaowei's hse. saw 2/8 guys, was a bit strange at first. lol. but norvin came to disturb, and den jeenson played a joke on me la, carol and guoxiang was like laughing at me. hello, i was super embarrassed lor. lol. but still i thought it was quite ok, since i talked to some of them, meeting up wif the rest of 2/8 gals. like seok han, haiping, sihua, enqi. all of them changed a lot, seriously. guess xiaowei enjoyed herself, everybody was busy taking photos and fooling around. hahas. but good moments do not last, we had to leave early. without joining them for a chat session at the playground. but it was really a nice gathering anw.

photos nxt time.

i seriously hate this kind of feeling. its so disturbing lor. but yet i can't do anything, but to accept. ya, the only thing i can do is i HAVE to accept, no choice. anw, couldn't finish chem paper in time. leave lots of blanks. nvm, i alrdy noe i will fail. just try my best for the other papers. can't wait for prelims to end. ~

hais. pointless to kp repeating the same thing over and over again. saw them in lib todae. pretended nothing happen. mavis kp laughing again, so funny meh? i still believe what i tink is right, i still dun tink its a coincidence. and i still tink he's the one who spoiled my relationship wif ~. its so weird and awkward now. dots, stupid me, why shld i kp talking about him.

anyway, jiawei went through vectors with us. ok, at least i can sae i noe more about vectors, of course still have to practice more. went for lunch at mac, forced to eat. am i becoming more and more like mavis? but i really dun feel like eating, can lose extra fats oso. mavis and me not really in the mood to study, so went window shopping. and den she left for her gathering and i went back hm.

oh ya, i forgot to mention i saw joven the other dae at west mall. but he nvr noticed me, and i didn't wan to embarrass myself for calling out. so i left instead.

econs extra lesson. hehe. i tink i quite enjoy it, cos we were practically joking around, and mr how is always so funny. lolx. i'm giving up a bit alrdy, cos i dun wan to stress up and den end up blanking out in the exams. just do whatever i can. at most go private uni or work. i might not be able to cope in unis as well, since i'm not self-disciplined. finally completed my lit hmwk, spend the whole day doing la! went home early, same old stupid reason. and i nvr studied todae! whee! not in the least guilty, cos i'm always tinking of vonn's b'dae where we will all get to go out for the whole dae, den off to xiaowei's b'dae party aft tt! i can't wait, but its aft prelims.

unlucky unlucky again. only mavis noe why. and stop laughing like shit whenever i see him. later he even more pissed and blog about me again! but as if i care, not affected anymore! LOL.

i am so disappointed with what i have heard, seriously. nthg i sae or do seems to work, shall leave it to others to help instead. i hope i am not affected. anw, not productive studying todae.