its the end of 2009! and 2010 is here, with a blink of an eye.

i finally completed my SIM dip after struggling for 15 months, i guess the environment doesn't suit me at all. but all i can say is that i learnt a lot from there, good and bad stuff, which i've alr get used to thereafter. but i'm really glad its over (:

anw, i feel that time is flying right now, compared to the past when i kept thinking of growing up quickly so that i can do things that i'm not allowed or supposed to do. but it really doesn't seem to be easy being an adult afterall. and i'm turning 21 this Apr! 21 means i have to shoulder more responsibilites and definitely there will be more troubles and stuff. i dun like all these):

i really really miss my sec and jc sch life, its definitely more enjoyable than now. and somemore i dun have any direction right now, shld i continue to take up a degree, or just continue working? heard lots of advice from different ppl, but i still have to make the final decision myself and its damn difficult. i hate making decisions!

we managed to make our new year resolutions before the countdown, SO i hope to get my driving license asap, go for at least one overseas trip(hopefully not neighbouring countries), get a degree or get something out of my work at least, i just hope that i will achieve something in my life and not nothing. Lastly, the most important thing is my family, i hope what i fear will never ever happen again. hopefully, my relationship with my dad will improve, its improving la, but i can't say the same in future. cos whenever i look at him, the scene will kp replaying in my mind, i can't seem to forget. but i know that i have to forgive and forget, cos he's still my dad no matter wad. like wad jas said, i hope next time when i look back and talk abt it, i will be smiling and everything will seem so small and insignificant. i dunno why, my family is really my weak point, whenever i talk abt them to anyone, i will get emotional easily. guess it means they are really important to me, so i must also learn to treasure and cherish them as well. and of course kgang also plays a very important role in my life, since sec sch, they have been my best pals, we grew up a lot tgt, and i got a lot of advice and experienced a lot with them. i hope we can all stay like wad we are now, and grow old tgt? hahas. and not forgetting mavis too, one of my best frens in jc, luckily we still kp in contact, and hopefully we will still meet up frequently in future. but she's forever busy, so ya, i still hope she will set aside time for me.. hahhas.

AND FOR NOW, i'm trying to look forward to something to get me going. but there's really nothing leh, except maybe the Bintan trip next week? and CNY maybe...

oh ya, i really should go and get a laptop soon, dun wanna impose on michael for too long.. hahas.